I have been in love before. The feeling is always so nice. Always so memorable. Every love I have had (only a couple okay? :)) I have loved very much. We also can stay as great true friends to this day. Sighs, my love-love situation is so complicated now. I honestly have never felt quite like this.... it hurts so much.... this love feeling. Of course I am all for the saying "it is better to have loved than to never have loved at all", but I almost wish I wasn't... because of our situation... his, and mine. We like each other... but at the same time, know it is wrong.... I know it is. Because I would hate to be his gf (whom is in another country.. but that doesn't make it any better!). To be in her shoes... to know he may like somebody else....sighs... but... I am the type to take chances.... if I really feel it is right.... I tried to give up on him honestly....(I can't...) in fact I am trying to wait till after he comes back from winter vacation (in jp)...(does this mean I am doing a slow dance?).... I wonder what will happen.... I feel bad though. So I keep this in me for so long XD it is so bothersome! lol. I just cannot give up! So even though I am so patient...its so hard on me...but... I cannot forget him and like another guy...like he told me to with eyes that cannot look at me when he says that...... I like him. That is just the way it is. I am also going to Yokohama, japan this winter... but I will not tell him V_V; and I hope I won't bump into him... but... I really want to see 9mm parabellum bullet live!! ;D I am excited because this will be my first vacation with my best friend! I will be sad to leave my family during xmas and new years.... but sometimes I think you need to be a little selfish, because once you are really out there in the real world... it is too difficult to complete your dreams. My dream is japan. Soon, I get to go there, and create memories. That is what I am about, making wonderful memories. That is why even though I am hurting in love, I still have a lot of good memories.
Why can't people just forgive others for something that was so old? I have not always had the best experiences in my life with people, but maybe because I didn't understand the other person very well, nor viseversa. I think it is important we understand each other before we go on a hater rampage :D If I can do something so simple, can't the rest of us? Doesn't it take too much energy to hate or be sad? We really don't have that long in our lives, that is why it is so important to make the best memories! In the end, that is all we really have no? I want to have great memories. ^_~ I want a great soundtrack to my life!!
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This is such a classic album. Most everybody knows who M-Flo (japanese) is, but this has to be their absalute best. Lisa was there and the music was/is unforgettable. They are just so pop now.... I know artists/grps have to change sometimes but.... V_V;;;